The BLISS List reminds me how quickly the weeks roll around. Before I know it I’m sat in front of my computer, looking back on the week past, trying to make a collage of all the good stuff. It’s nice to dwell in the positivity of the week gone by and show mass gratitude for it before jumping into a fresh one! Let’s do this.
This week I experienced first hand what a drastic effect concentrated self love can have in such a short time frame. After feeling a little blah and more than a little frazzled, I journeyed inward and came out with a whole new perspective on life. My Day Of Healing will be become an anticipated ritual for me, something I’ll endeavour to indulge in every fortnight. I already can’t wait till the next one.
I think I understand what Wayne Dyer means when he says that he doesn’t write his books; that the Universe’s creative forces move through him. Likewise, when Gabby Bernstein gets asked how she maintains her energy levels, she insists she’s not working with her own energy and instead that she’s a channel. I get it now. If I’m craving a little more creativity, I’ll ask for it. Sometimes I need a little guidance in responding to my coaching girls, and when I do, I dip my head in meditation and ask. The same goes for a good night sleep. I am a channel for anything I desire. And you are too. It’s kinda delicious don’t you think? It’s like liquid, baby; easy, fluid, all encompassing.
I have a crush. I’m totally obsessed with The Daily Love, are you? Can I be totally honest? I don’t know whether I’d love TDL this intensely if it were written by yet another divinely feminine, ultra hip spiritual chick. Mastin Kipp makes me swooooon. He’s a twenty-eight year old ancient soul who speaks of courage and love and ego and saying yes! He’s an entrepreneur. He’s a romantic. And I hang onto every.single.word.he.says, simply because there is no one else like him in the world; a total trail blazer. Sure, I’d definitely like to do something about that haircut of his, but otherwise, what a babe (!)- in every sense of the word.
Stunning + Staggering + Kinda Scary Synchronicities
During my totally loved up Skype call with this little Goddess, synchronicity became a topic of conversation (as it often does in my life). I was explaining to Jia how I actively looks for the coincidences in my life, and that I’m never, ever afraid to say: It’s a sign!
I’m going to cut in here with the clincher, and then I’ll circle back to synchronicities.
I did something mega-outrageous yesterday. Other than my cute Holden Cruz that I put on finance back when I was nineteen, I participated in my most expensive investment yet- a spot at this coaching retreat. Three days of intimate, illuminating business and soul coaching with just three other women in beautiful Cairns, hosted by one of new favourite people, Leonie Dawson. The cost? Including flights, well over $4000. It’s fair to say that yesterday I was well on the cusp of both laughing and vomiting simultaneously; a mixture of sheer terror and pee-your-pants excitement.
Synchronicities pushed me over the edge and away from my fear, and I really want to talk you through what my decision making process looked like.
On Friday, I posted a juicy topic: When Spending Money Makes You More Of It. That post was literally about investing in coaching, mentoring and further education under the premise that the more you spend on what enriches your being, you more money you have to make. It’s the law of abundance- live in that space of growth and investment, and you’ll experience it tenfold. SO. The very next day after releasing that post to the world, I find myself in what feels like a Mexican stand off: me on one end of the pitch, all wide eyed and open-handed, receptive to the world- and Leonie standing at the other end, in beautiful Cairns with her loving smile, waving me closer ‘What are you waiting for Tara? Let’s do this shit!’ All that’s standing between us was a big sign that says $3750. It feels like I looked at that sign for two hours. In reality, it was probably two minutes. The angel on my shoulder then very quickly and very matter-of-factly stated ‘F*** it!’ (she loves a bit of swagger), and my fingers swished and glided along my keyboard until the deposit came up as PAID.
I can dig much deeper than this and show you what else stomped around my mind in those two minutes. Like I said before, I actively look for synchronicities in every situation and treat them a guide as to whether my answer will be yes or no. Yesterday was the day before mine and Glen’s three-years-since-we’ve-been-together anniversary (which means that today is the love fest!), and the retreat in September finishes a day before mine and Glen’s 1 year wedding anniversary. So what, you say. Big deal. I’m all about the woo-woo, sweet potato. This was a divine reassurance that investing in my business is as beneficial to my love as is it to my bank account. I’m striving for greatness so I can change peoples lives, that includes my husbands. He’s going to be one lucky prick!
Still though, I can dig deeper.
Recently I found out that Hibiscus Moon, who is the super sparkly creator of the certified crystal healer course that I’m commencing in September, has a life and business coach. Guess who it is? Yep. Leonie. If Leonie’s good enough for Hibiscus, she’s good enough for me. Side note: Hibiscus lives on the other side of the world, in the U.S, and these two still managed to connect and create business earthquakes and soul fires.
I’m sharing this with you because everyone loves a success story. The success here is not that I’ve started my own business or that I had the money to pay for the retreat (hhhmmmm) or that I’m super intuitive and trusting of that angel on my shoulder. It’s that I’ve really, truly learnt to listen to my fear, and then proceed to kick it to the curb. In fact- I would go so far as to say that I’m in the business of kicking fear to the curb. Take that, slimy fear!
Do I feel guilty about the money I’ve spent? Not one bit. What about piling up debt? I’m enormously abundant and my debt is a reflection of the investments I’ve made in myself and in good of the world. My debt is serving me and it won’t be long until I’ve kicked it to the curb, too. How can I justify spending so much when I’ve only just started out? I’m going to be on the top of my game from the get go. I’m 25 years old. When I’m 40, my business is going to be like a fricken healing institution. There will be no competition; just me and my soul sisters making the world a better place. What’s my biggest fear about this retreat? That it will transform me so powerfully that my physical body will have trouble keeping up. That I won’t want to leave.
It feels so good to share this with you, and I hope this story inspires you to actively take part in that tug-o-war dialogue that goes on in our brain. Always listen to both teams, but try and lead with your heart.
I bloody love this man.
**Spreading the Green Juice love throughout the hotel. I love me a mini-revolution — Discovering that our convection microwave has a dehydrating function. 40 degrees celsius. WIN. — Feeling like a writer (please see above bliss point on fluid creativity) — Registering for an Australian Business Number (oh yes I did!) — Using the Stickies app on my MacAir to memo BLISS Lists **
Yep, this week was a good one. Tell me all about yours, woman!